HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED EELEE =)


yeah...
time can fly!
i still rmber when u 1st took over west was ard ur bdae too!
and we gave u that pink bag.. hahahas.
anyway.... it has been a joy serving God with ya..
=)


eelee i love you!
thanks for everything and thanks for being my fren =)
i love to hang out with ya and i feel secured sharing my weaknesses to u..
cos i noe that u are one person that god place in my life to guide me !!
yay, thanks for being part of my life and i appreciate it alot !
frm my dad's issue to my o level, to my DAE days to my grp's lowest peak times and to my recent breakthru in accounting and to now...
thanks for being there for me =)
yay.


duno wat to say thou.
if i continue on.. goosebumps will appear mann.
wahahas.
anyway, thanks a million =)


happy 2_th birthday!
wahahahs. =)

how does it feels like when u are doing something so that ppl can enjoy it and end up treated like a plague?
effort, extra miles and many more are not absence..
i feel so injustice.
try putting urself in other's shoe.
u will see how ugly u are when u point ur finger without understanding wats going on.

another post for today..
there is alot of "God, u must help me" in my mind now..
however, i doubt that i have given my best in wadever i did this week.


in jesus name, i pray that my cg's new structure will advance ur kingdom.



BBQ!
now i truely understand...
its a hassle to prepare this mann.
guys and gals... pls get all ur ppl down for this!
its impt, its an attraction for ppl to come down for closets.
its a by hook or by crook thing, cannot say no!
bleghs =)
after so much efford putting in, Jesus, help us to see fruits!


CLOSETS!
i am glad that there will be 2 visitors coming down =)
however, its not confrim yet.
so so so, currently we hit 11.
still dun understand y so little.
lets work harder!
=)


oh well...
these are the concerns i had ytd..
wahahas.
there are many more thou..
sometimes i reali wonder...
am i a good leader?
yups, of cos i noe that i am not perfect..
but i reali wana be a better me as a leader.


okay, thats abt it.
tml's closet.
gonna do well =)
my future of west a 2, its all in God's hand.
amen =)

ting is frustrated by her irresponsibleness!
argh!
it took 3 days for me to realised that..
i am sorry =(
hais, mayb ting should jus stop eating her antibiotic..
should jus allow the bacteria to infect her heart..
i am reali remorseful of how irresponsible i am!


oh well, i sound abit exaggerating..
ok *deep breath and count" 12345678910!
self-condemnation and dwelling stop here.


ting shall move on and be more responsible. =)

i am feeling reali terrible..
argh.
my temp is going up and down..
my throat reali hurts.
i am pretty sure that i can slim down after this.
wahahas.
let me tell u why..


sat- i ate "kuey sup" (duno how to spell)
-- thats all..
sun- i drank a bowl of soup..
-- thats all..
today- haben ate anything yet..
--


so.. how to not slim down?
wahahahas.
i have difficulties in eating and drinking mann.
yucks.
gonna see doc later..
argh, i wana be healed!
thankiew Jesus!


i am very thankful to jes and jiahui..
they actually planned out the cg roles for me ytd!
wahahas.
cos they knew that i am very sick and yups, i was so touch when i receive their calls.
wahahas.
jes and jia hui..
thanks a million.
i reali appreciate for wat u have done!
lurve ya =)

knowing jesus is the best thing that can ever happen to me..
its my greatest gift in life that i am given a chance to serve him, to love him and also, to noe this wonderful God that love me dearly =)
God i am jus dumbfounded..
argh, this is the best thing in life..
there is no other better deal den to invest my life into ur kingdom..
there is no better way to experience wats love all abt.
thankiew for everything =)


ting had fever again!
and the temp keep increasing..
scary!
hais, i feel so bad abt jus now..
i tik i complain too much!
keep complaining tat i am cold.
i shouldnt do that =(
sorry God!!
not gentle in spirit!
cannot mann`

argh, today is a lazy day for me..
feel like staying at home and do nth.
wahahahas.


ytd went to Je to do maths..
hmmms, i reali hope that all the time that i use for doing maths will be useful.. =)
last nite, it was a very divine nite for me.
holy spirit chit-chatted with me.
and i tell u, when holy spirit chit chat with ya, tears will flow unknowingly..
i am just too touch by him..
before i fall asleep...
holy spirit made me sit down and rmber y i do wat i do..
is it jus a routine?


and as i was thinking wat i have been doing..
i am asking myself y am i doing all these?
the great commission, love of God blah blah blah
jus went thru my mind..
i am thinking, in the eyes of the world...
wat i have been doing is quite dumb isnt it?
y on earth would i use my time on outreaching, cg...
y is it my life is revolve ard ppl and ministy..
y did i invest my emotions, my youth to this?
and worldly ppl claim that all these are jus so meaningless...
so is that true?
yups, these are wat i ask the holy spirit..
i dun reali noe wat he thinks after all these questions are 'bombarded' to him..
its like, not that i duno the values of doing all these...
however, since he made me sit down and reali ponder, den i reali start digging everything and i want to renew this passion again by being convicted y i do wat i do all over again =)


and guess wat?
his answer jus warmth my heart...
i was reminded that being is more impt den doings..
the things that i have been doing can be quite dumb if i focus on the 'doings' more den the 'beings'
and also, holy spirit reminded me wat i have learn in hope sem, ministry is the result of love, not e other way round.
if the love of god jus flood u, its very natural to do his work!
and mind u, doing his work is not jus to repay wat he has done for u, cos nv will we come to a point that we can repay wat he has done.
so i ask holy spirit...
so coming to noe u is more den jus investing my life into ur kingdom right?
and yups, its more den that.coming to noe God is more den the doings!!
coming to noe jesus means i am knowing wat is love, wat i joy, wat is peace..
to noe jesus is abt being saved and forgiven..
to noe jesus, i will find a listener and a fren that understands me thru`ly..
coming to noe jesus means i can walk in the light and wun live in comdemnation anymore.
to noe jesus is thay i can bid goodbye to my ugly past.
and the list goes on...


and yes, we are given a chance to noe this God is our privillege..
and we are supposed to go begging in order to have this privillege,
however, it was given to us freely..
and many ppl jus dun appreciate it.
some rejected him, jus claim that serving him is tough and therefore gave up, some even claim that watever he/she has now is much more impt den god.
its ridiculous, the cross is jus so insignificant in their eyes.


and conclusion made was ting has to learn to focus her eyes on God.
if we didnt focus on god, watever we do will be meaningless isnt it?
imagine doing God's work without God in the picture?
sounds illogical isnt it?
when i learn how to get my focus right,
the things that i do is not meaningless as the world claim to be.
i am in the business of winning souls.
and its impt, cos if i lost a deal, its not money that i am losing, its one precious soul.
its not logical to tik that god's love, the cross, souls are meaningless and insignificant!
argh!
and i am convicted once again =)
thankiew holy spirit!


a few days ago, someone ask me this question...
"y is it that our heart can be empty? is it we are not god-centered enough?"
initially, i didnt tik much abt this question.
i tot that its normal and bcos we have this god-shaped hole, and when our heart its empty, we can fill it with the spirit.
but ytd, i am still thinking abt this.
i ask myself... "is it reali normal to feel empty?"
and i asked david when i met him ytd.
he answer me a lot and this strucked me..
"its not empty, i can say is tempted"
and this jus answered my question.


cos i was wondering that since we have jesus to fill this god-shaped hole, there is no reason to feel empty anymore..
but we cant deny the fact that we do feel empty at times.
and david's ans made me learn and realised something.
its not that god doesnt wana fill our god-shaped-hole..
sometimes, its simply us not allowing him to do so..and also, y did he use the word "tempted" instead of "empty" ?
to me, i tik its cos when we are tempted, we want the things that we noe we cannot have it.
since its ungodly desire, how to have it? right?
so when we cant get wat we want, not exactly cant get, is choose not to get..
its natural to feel empty, cos since we have an ungodly desire, God doesnt have the space to stand in our heart anymore.
so, if we allow god to fill us, and to flood his presence in us, and when we are in his presence, the ungodly desires will go away, and that 'empty' feeling will go away as well =)


wah, long entry...
i have learn alot within these 2 days.new conviction and my relationship with God has grown to another level =)
ting shall be focus on God more den anything else and i noe wat i am doing.
the love of god is jus so awesome.
if u tik its dumb, this simply means that u haben taste wat God's love is all abt.
if u are on the verge of giving up, den focus ir eyes on god again...
his love, the cross... isnt this enough?
y give up? =)
alright, i love God.
bye!

shrugs.
i lost my hp!
its like... again...
i feel so lousy mann.
lost my credibility already.
my dad is not going to buy me a new phone.
cos almost every phone i got, i will lost it..
its jus like a 'sooner or later' fact.
even myself, i dun trust myself..
so careless =(
thou its a lousy phone but its still a phone.. right?
argh, i wana a new phone !


anything contact me thru another number, dun bother to call or sms 90189406 le.
cos 1 more mth, the contract will be over, so this number will be gone for life.
bleghs.
i cant post my new contact number on this public blog..
duhh?
so............. argh, jus ask me directly for my number ba =)


HAIS !

in the name of tingting i command u, open ur BIG eyes and read on...
bleghs.


one` hey folks, wats the date today?
wahahaha!!
its 19-july !!
my 3rd year anniversary with Jesus!
happy 3year old to me =)
hey jesus, are u as excited as i do?
our special date eh!
Jesus, WHERE IS MY BDAE GIFT?
hehees.
my beloved jesus, u owe me one gift, i dun care.. bleghs.
jesus jesus jesus, happy 3rd year anniversary..
jesus, i enjoyed the 3 years with ya and i am going to celebrate this day till i die.
so when i reach heaven, i shall claim ALL my gifts at one time.
hehees.
so excited!


two` NO ACCOUNTS LESSON!
this news is even more exciting den the world cup.
wahahaas.
sound so nonsense, but... i reali hate going to accounts lesson
yucks!


three` went msia to shop shop.
hmmms, didnt buy much thou.
one new tee and heels =)
and a 10bucks contact lens. wahahas.
but i enjoyed the fellowship! =)
oh ya, that ramlee buger, so disappointing~
hmpz!


hmmms. duno wat to say le.. wahahahs.
yarwnz, i am sleepy..
going to spend time with god and den ZzzZZzzZZzz..
nights folks! =)

went bpp today~
and yups, went to invite ppl down for closets.
hehehes.
i feel great doing God's work..
was reali scared b4 we start approaching ppl..
my concern was... how to start the conversation?
den i ask the gals this 'duhh' question..
ting:"how do u all normally start a conversation with non-bs that u wana reach out to?"
jiahui:"we are frm youth organisation..blah blah blah.."
hahahs.
i was like..... duhh?!
and i start wondering y am i asking this question..
is not as if i didnt do this b4..
i mean, i an not "duhh-ing" jiahui, i am "duhh-ing" myself!
is like, my concern abt how to start a conversation is so useless.
wahahas.


we are so blessed that 99% of the ppl we approached said that they would consider abt it.
and yups, there are ppl who reject us too!
however, i always blive that when we are doing spiritual work, God is with us..
we do the humanly possible, which is giving our best...
and God will do the humanly impossible..
to stir the hearts of the ppl and to soften them~
and God entrusted me with two precious souls that wasnt saved yet.
i am responsible to sow on them and eventually, bring them to christ =)
as i said, i will give my best and God will do the spiritual work in their hearts =)


had dinner with joyce and jia hui today.
and wad i can say is... it was a rush dinner!
cause i am meeting dan after that dinner and yes, i was late again!
shrugs.
so all in all, that fellowship with joyce wasnt a quality one.
its k, we still have plenty of chances to have quality fellowship!
and i felt reali bad.. cos i am late for "tution" .. sorry dan and elise =(


dan look at my nails and ask me this question..
"is that liquid paper?"
omg.. wahahas!
but anyway, i detroyed that beautiful art on my nails already!
so i shall wait for jency to re-do it for me!
wahahas.
and i have been chanting to my hair lately..
wondering when can i get rid of this mushroom head?
my hair, would u grow faster?
retarded! =X


going JB to shop with eelee they all..
half of me is reluctant..
another half of me is excited!
reluctant cos i am so afraid that i have no money.
its so retard to go JB without money~ hahas.
excited cos i am looking forward to e fellowship and yes, SHOPPING!
1st time going JB shopping without my dad! weee` =)


a food for tot for today..
when we are at the lowest peak of our lives..
we tend to say this to God "God serving u is so tiring, God u seem so far, God, i feel like giving up, God,why? God, obeying u is so tough... and the list goes on..."
and when we are at the high peak of life... we will say this "God u are good! serving u is so exciting! never will i give up, serving u is not a chore! obeying u is the best for me!! and the list goes on..."
why cant we be constant?
high peak,low peak.. no matter wat, our view of serving God should be constant isnt it?
may it be high peak or low peak, the love of God is constant, the fact the jesus died on e cross dun change, God is with us dun change, serving is a joyful thing dun change and many more!


alright, we are sinners.
we are a bunch of irritating ppl.
i reali wonder... how come god can tolerate us?
or mayb, God doesnt view this as toleration..
cos god wasnt impatient in the 1st place~
its amazing...
i guess, we simply cant put our human understanding of love into God.
cos God's love is way beyond our understanding..
omg, this is jus so amazing~
his love reali goes beyond our understandings...
this is the love that human cant give it to me.
i duno how to put wat i wana say in words.
i jus feel so...argh. wahahas
simply put in words, when there is no reason that i could find to forgive that person or even myself, God forgave.
when i thought that this person doesnt deserve another chance cos many chances are given, God gave the 2nd chance or rather 100th chances.
and i cant help it but to ask God... "God, reali arh?"
God's love is the real love.
cos this love cant be replaced by anything on earth.


i wana grow in many areas in my life..
to be constant!
praising God even when things dun go well.
serve him with joy even when problems are knocking on the door..
to say the truth, i am super irritated by ppl whose life is like a roller coaster...
it goes up and down, up and down.
that kind of still praising God ytd and complained today.
can say that i felt impatient and tik that they are nth but craps.
and when the next time round, that person went "up" on the roller coaster ride, i dun reali wana bother, cos i assume that they will jus go "down" on e following day and yups, they are jus crapping~
however, God reminded me that he is jumping with joy when one repents and turn back to him..
so who am i to tik that he/she is crapping? and who am i to be impatient with this person?
God is the one who should feel this way, not me.
of cos, god WUN feel this way and wun think the way i tot =) god is gracious!
however, i always forgot to judge myself b4 judging others.
at times i am that irritating person i was talking abt.. =(
God, i dun wana be this kinda ppl!
i wana be constant.
oh well, its tough... i noe.
but holy spirit, do ur work.
thanks a million =)


towards 17.
west a TWO.. closets is one chance that u can bring ur frenz =)
jiayou!

 

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ting responded during the sat service.. =)
weee`
God threw me this question : "wat makes u so convicted that u are leading a meaningful life?"
i tot abt it and.... i jus answer God..."bcos i have a purpose in life? i noe y i do wat i do? i noe u lord..."
and this question was thrown to me... :"wat is ur purpose in life?"
and yes, when this question pops into my mind, i knew wat God is trying to say..
yups, i am the fisher of man, not manager of man!
and the purpose of everything that i am doing in the kog, it should link back to outreach..
bring the lost souls to the kog.
the great commission has already stated it clearly, morever, its the command frm Jesus.
me, as beliver, dun come to earth and party, rot, enjoy life, i am here to spread the good news to e ppl ard me.
and outreaching is one thing that i cant do when i go heaven..
my purpose on earth is to reach for the lost, and if i am not doing it.. its jus like going to gym and not exercise, going to bugis and not shop, going to skool and not studying blah blah blah..
and if i am not outreaching, which is my purpose on earth, den how am i going to lead a meaningful life?

i will forfeit myself frm alot of joy and blessings!

the greatest joy in life is to see that person u've work on crossing the line of faith.

this joy is something that money cant buy, ur loved ones can give it to u...

outreaching is witnessing abt God's goodness, jus need to tell them wat u have experienced =0

if u love God, outreaching is something natural and u will not find it as a chore..

so ting, do u love God?


outreaching is one thing that i wana place it in my schedule~
i am very convicted abt it..
many times, i told myself that i have to go evax all these..
but i didnt place it in my schedule and it always end up me doing other stuffs instead of going to the field and reach for the lost.
argh..
dun worry, i already fix the days and time with my ppl to go outreach le.
yeah, no more excuses!
i am the fisher of man!


went to jurong east library to do maths jus now.
and guess wat, all of us REGRET going to to this place.
so noisy!
its like, there are bands in the library
they literally jam in the library..
omg, their voice is so aweful that everyone frown..
wahahhas.
and it was so loud that i have to scream in order to communicate to the person beside me.
thats crap lar..
1st time screaming in the library~
happening or not?


david reminded me this today...
holy spirit dun condemn, holy spirit convicts.
so if ever one day, u feel comdemned, are u sure its the spirit or the devil or rather urself?
we have to be spiritually aware and be familiar with God's voice.
and also, the circles of frens..
its good to have a fren even outside our district.
dun only keep our cirlces of frenz within our unit or district.

 

 

went to jency's hse to stay over last nite~

nice time knowing wendy and yups, i guess its fruitful!

yay.

love it =)

and ting taught in seed meet!

hehhees.

thank God for all these =)

love it!

 

serving god is suppose to be joyful..
if u dun feel this way...
u have to get things right and u have miss out the whole thing abt God.
or perhaps, u haben reali noe who this God is =)


oh btw, ting has this feeling of...
"so near yet so far" feeling~
sighs.


i will give my best to the kog.
god ONLY deserve the best.
even giving him the best ting.. =)

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Greatest Gift

Condemnation falls away
Never bound to call on me
I am clean, I am clean

The powerful work is here in me
Breaks the chain of guilt and shame
I go free, I go free
I'll take them to your cross and leave them there
Captured by His grace, I'm free at last

It is the great gift of your salvation
Working in me, working in me
It is the life giving taste of heaven
Your kindness revealed, your kindness revealed to me

It's the greatest gift of all, It's the greatest gift of all
It's the greatest gift of all

Mercy's pouring down on me, Mercy's pouring down on me
I am clean, I am clean
Mercy's pouring down on me, Mercy's pouring down on me
I go free, I go free

at this point of time, i reali hope that i can have the special ability to read ppl's mind..
however, i noe that this is not possible at all..
i blive, God dun create 'communication' for nth..
i blived this is y our ears and mouth are created for..


the work of human's mind are jus too profound for me to understand.
i guess, even if i were to be given a lifetime, still, i wun be able to understand!
human beings are jus too complicated..
and with this complexity, ting wun be able to underatand wat's going on in the other party's mind without communication..
hais.


i noe, the best way to noe abt wat others is thinking is thru communication..
however, wat am i going to do if there is a communication break down?
wat if the channel of communication has been cut off?
we dun have the oppotunity to do so,i dun have the courage to do so and i cannot do so..
how i wish, everything will be back to normal..
ASAP god.. pls.
if only i have put that matter into an end sooner, all these tragedies wun happen..
so God, other den the ability of reading ppl's mind, wat's other method do i have to understand wat's reali going on?
ting is jus so troubled now!!!
i reali duno wat to do ... =(
i am jus too tired to play guessing games, esp guessing the tots of ppl's mind...
argh.. !! hais.


catch up with ah ben jus now.
wah, it has been years since we reali sit down and chit-chat le =)
knew him since i was sec 2.. long time hur??
its reali amazing how time can fly..
the frenz ard me...
some of them drives already, went army, one of them became mummy already..
wah, i'm already 18!
omg, i hab to behave like 18 already!
no more being so kid-ish..
argh, grow up! =p

finally, everything has settled =)
weeee` freedom!!!!
i noe i will nv walk alone..
God, thanks a million =)
eelee, thanks a million too =p
accounting brings freedom, the word of God set us free.
i am glad that i did it =)
thankiew holy spirt for bugging me!
wahahahs.


had a great time with eelee jus now.
told her everything and phew~ so relieved =)
lurve ya shepherd =)


again, i was reminded how bless west a two is.
God is very faithful with this cg.
will nv forget those barren times..
hahas.
now, we are enjoying the fruits of persevering!
hehes.
within 6 months, west a two has grown frm 5 to 16 =)
a mini cg to a mini unit!!
amen!
reali eh, lets retain all of them and we can break into a unit soon!


God, i can nv thank u enough..
many many times, i reali cannot deny that u are favouring me..
ur love for me is jus so tangible.
i am very sure that ur love is not jus a fairy tale.
when i was young, i always tot that jesus dying on the cross is jus another easter legend and the birth of Jesus is jus another christmas fairy tale.
i did wonder b4 when i was young, y only Jesus bdae have holiday and not buddha's bdae?
wahahas.
however, i experienced ur love and i noe that all these is not a fairy tale, its the truth.
and the truth has set me free=)
felt so loved, so forgiven.


to tik abt it, wat i have done is so dumb mann..
hahahas.
repented le..
i noe, kicking myself dun work..
instead, i have to be more God-concious and accountable.
i am glad that everything has come to an end =)
and i am glad that i can laugh at my own stupidity and no longer dwell in it.


i dun deny that there is still puny bits of fear in my heart.
however, holy spirit is constanly reminding me that i shouldnt fear.
cos i have HIM =)
jus live my life pleasing to god, jus do wat is rite..
no point fearing, fear is due to i am too inward looking, too self-concious..
however, if i plug myself into the presence of God, fear wouldnt have 'space' in my heart.
so its all abt focusing on God, be more God-concious..
and i will not fear =)
hurray

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oh well, for ur info, these are banned commercials... =p

had dispute with aaron.
argh.
infuriated!!!


procastinate to do maths today~
due to my crave for slp~
wahahas.
however, i did maths anyway =)
wouldnt wan to leave an bad impression and its for my own good hur? =)


mins after mins, hours after hours.
my heart beats faster and faster..
disquieting heart, thats so annoying!
btw this has no link with the dispute with aaron~
fear and worries has crippled me, God, help me to stand up again...
i trust in u.


there is this card in my wallet says...
-DON'T WORRY ABOUT TOMMORROW, GOD IS ALREADY THERE-


this always nv fail to comfort me =)
thank u God!

since i have done the right thing..
i shouldnt be afraid.
i shouldnt be worried.
God will settle everything.
God is in control..
tiingg!! dun worry =)


my heart sank when i noe the truth..
u simply treat me as a trash.
y am i treasuring u so much when u didnt even respect me?
so sad =(
but i noe, in the family of God, nth worse will happen=p


i tik i am so dumb, i only noe e truth ytd.
its has been a long time that i am a fool.
its ok mann, God is with me =)


freedom, this is wat i longed for.
and guess wat?
i am pretty sure that i have been set-free.
i feel uneasy, but i noe its the right thing to do so =)

FRANCE LOST!!
ARGH.


so angry mann..
i felt so...argh!
thou i am so noob abt soccer, i knew that they are SO CLOSE to win.
irritating!



hahas.. so funny one..
i was pulling my hair when they miss that goal~
1st time lidat.


dun care, i shall be a sore loser.
i wana be in anti-italy club!
i am sure that keith will join me!
wahahas.
on msn, he was like too angry to slp le..
hahahs.
funny~


so sad =X

x finally, ting has been set free... and i felt reali relieved =) was actually regreting for accounting, but now, nope. i feel so good =) thanks eelee =)
God help me thru ppl, its a boo-boo to tik that i can handle...
no wonder i felt so defeated everytime..
i noe, this is not e end, this is the begining~
i am prepared to face watever is ahead.
those concequences~
God, help me.. protect me..
i hope that everything will turn up well...
really..
its not comfy to bring the dark to light..
however, its the right thing to do..
and we must not be deceived by the devil, he will use our feelings to fool us..
however, bringing everything to light can reali set us free.
God, thank u =)
now, i can serve God in a more powerful way! =)


x West A TWO hit 16 for service!
witness two precious souls crossing the line of faith =)
thats e most joyful thing that can ever happen..
reali glad for them!
hope that they will stay in this wonderful family..
in jesus name!
i reali duno wat to say..
reali appreciate those who have worked hard for this harvest =)
hey Gals, hitting 16 is wonderful!!
however, this is jus the begining..
we cannot jus stop here alright?
wah..
exciting =)
dun be tired, cos God is our strength, we serve God with God's strength..
amen?
for ur info, if plus the NBs in.. west a 2 have ard 16 ppl already!
connect them and make sure everyone comes, we can be a unit le!
yeah!
new shepherds have to rise up =)


x God spoke to me...
as a leader, i cannot be a manager!
only noe how to manage the grp and making sure that everything goes well is not enough!!
we are called to be the fisher of man..
we called to outreach!
to reach for those who are lost.
nth in this face of the earth can be more impt den winning souls.
no matter how much probs u have, no matter wat happen to u.. at least u noe that when u die, u can go heaven..
but for those who didnt noe God, not only they will face probs, they will go to hell after they die!
dun u tik that they are pitiful?
wats the worse thing that can happen to us when we outreach?
the most, we kana reject..
but if we dun share to them, its a matter of death and live.
the more we outreach, e more we should be passionate for God!
tiredness and fear is not an excuse =)
loses that passion is cos we haben been outreaching!
so ting, u are called to be the fisher of man and not manager of man!
outreach should be in my everyday life =)


x shared testimony in NW-PCLM..
shared abt my gals.
abt how they grow, how powerful they are now =)
the AES little gals, u noe who u are..
i am reali proud of u guys.
how i wish that i can praise u infront of the whole church!
God look highly on u =)


x ting is watching soccer tonight!
miracle can happen at times!
wahahahs,
1st time watching lars.
i only wana watch finals.
wahahas..
i hope that france will win!
cos everyone says that france will lose..
i am trying to be different.. wahahas.
lame!
anyway, i am a noob in soccer.. wahahas


x ting's journey gonna be more exciting..
more breakthrus..
=)
i repented for wat i've done.
thank God for his grace and mercy.
i wana be a better person for God.
i am glad that God still loves me, and even more and more each day!
thankiew God for that 2nd chance that i needed =p
God is a God of 2nd chance


x CLOSETS.. ICE MAN RETURNS..
these are the tools of bringing ur frenx to come !
yeah, be assured that its gonna be awesome and expect high level of fun there =)
bring ur frens along!
no point doing all these if there is no non-b coming..
agree?
hehees.
hard work!
God honours those who give God her/his best =)

 

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argh, i cant fell asleep..
flipping on my bed, changing position..
and this has last for an hour until i decide to on my com instead of wastin time on bed.
tiingg is very extream today.
one extream, i am reali disquiet..
another extream, happy.
in e midst of laughers, i sigh..
in e midst of disquietness, i smiled.
isnt that nuts?


actually, i guess u guys can jus ignore my previous post.
ytd i felt that sense of victory..
and guess wat, today i felt so defeated.
oh well, does being angry with myself helps?
or mayb i should be mad at the cause of my 'breaking down'.
again and again, tiingg was destroyed by it.
God, help me!


if u noe me, flip-flop-ing on my bed is nth unusual..
yups, i have prob in falling asleep!
last night wasnt an exception.
was thinking abt wat can i do to exprience the real freedom that i am longing?
and this tot came across my mind..
+ account


some flashbacks..
the 1st time that i felt set-free was 2005, i supposed.
i pick up my courage to account my deep secrets to shuz.
b4 accounting, i noe that holy spirit was bugging me.
and i tell u, that feeling was so.... argh.
i reali cant find any words to describe how i feel than..
i rmber that day, it was so significant..
accounted, and guess wat.
i sleep with a smile, i woke up with a smile.
breakthrus in my spiritual walk and felt so set-free.
i am no longer binned!


oh well, i am pretty sure that this is God trying to tell me something.
that freedom that i longed for, it has happened b4..
and today, i need to be set free.
i gonna account!
meeting joyce this sat, tiingg is going to reveal the real ting to her.
tiingg has never reveal herself to others b4...
tiingg has not been the real tiingg..
as God is speaking to me, joyce jus pop up in my mind.
i guess, she is e best candidate =) hahas.
and of cos, she is the one that i truely trust =)


Jesus, i reali hope that everything will come to an end.
God, can i be the one that put everything to an end?
will i be able to do that?
those anxieties - shoo~


today, i went bugis with my sheep, jes.
wow, reali had fun there =)
had alot of sweet memories there.
i bought one tee and one shorts.
i love it =)
i lurve the company of jes, she is one person that i feel so comfortable to be with =)


and yups, we took neo prints!
u noe wat?
the last time i took this kinda pics was 3 years ago!
was rejecting this mann..
cos its ex and once its not nice, ur money will be gone jus lidat!
risky~
but yeah, took it today.. hahas.
i wonder wat had changed my mind mann.
but praise God, it turn out to be not bad =)
kinda sweet thou..
i will post it some days later =)
jes, rmber our deal? =p
-rings and cakes.


went home and guess wat?
david was at my hse!
he came to stay over...
felt abit bad to disturb him and aaron~
wahahas..
and yes, the new recipe soup was nice but salty~
wahahas.
thanks aaron and david!
did confirmation and guess wat?
david hit 12!
yeah!!!!!!
ur P12~
and i hit 17!!!
hooray!!!!
17 leh!
omg.
thank to those who have work hard =)


hey wanling, if u are reading this..
jus wana tell ya that i thank u for ur hard work.
thou ur frenz didnt agree to come tml, but yea, as long as u have done ur best..
God saw ur effort!
its ok, dun give up and yea, God will bless one =)
dun be discourage k!
i reali appreciate u in my cg and i blive God appreciate ur hard work too!


for the rest, thanks for bring ur frenz!
when ur frenz exprience wat is true love, wat is it abt by living a meaningful life, i bet that they will thank u a million!
wahahahas.
this kind of reward is worth our extra miles ya?


there are too many things in the world for me to worry abt.
however, there are alot of things that worth my smile =)
even there is nth that goes well, thanking God for his love, the salvation that was given to me freely is more den enough.
isnt that true?
i can say that my passion for god is still alive.
its not dead.
as long as there is still lost souls out there, my passion shouldnt be dead.
as long as God still loves me, there is no reason for me to turn my back frm him.
everything can fade away, but e wog wun..
everything changes, but the e love of god dun.
the world cause me to be so insecure, but i can always find my security in the lord's arm =)


westA2 will be going to a new chapter if we can constanly hit more den 15.
no longer we are cg, we will be an unit!
new CLs will rise up, new shepherds, new dynamics.
omg, i cant wait for this day to come!
if i am going to give up, i will be worse den a loser.
ting is very on to see a unit for jesus.. wat abt u ? =)


all i need to focus is...

+ my studies.
make sure i can go into a good poly course =)
make sure i dun disappoint e ppl who went extra miles for me..
~dan feng-teaches me maths despite physically tiredness.
~eelee- went extra miles for me, searh teachers, encouraging me..
~daddy -pay for my skool fees, expensive!

+ my grp.
i mus disciple new Cls, new shepherds.
a unit for jesus!


+ my relationship with God and man.

+ myself.
~a better me.


the rest, if its God's will, i will focus.
if not, shoo!
dun try to distract me. =p


hmmms wat else did i forget to say?
okay...
i tik thats abt it.
tml will be a tired but exciting day for me ! =)
1st time ever seeing 17 ppl in my cg.
wahahas.
pray that everything will go well =)

 

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tiingg's eyelids are heavy..
tiingg is so sleepy now..
after this post, tiingg is going to do maths!
call her nuts? kekekes.
for ur info, the speed of tiingg doing maths is......
0.1m/hr?
k lar, i am trying to say that...
i do math in a very slow speed - in a high degree.
argh!


hmmms.
i had a sense of victory.
one of my greatest fear that i seriously do not anticipate finally took place AGAIN.
oh well, all i can say is i reacted in a very different way compared to the previous one.
when that 'happening' happened the other time, i felt so defeated, i felt so at lost..
and of cos, i felt so dumb and unworthy.
this time round, every word that i said, it was processed in my mind and duhh, i asked god to help me!
at the end of e day, not denying the fact that i was abit angry.
i neither felt defeated nor lost.. but i felt very 'monkey'

cos i noe that he treated me as one.
fooled me again and again, and oh well, he tik its interesting~
the comforting part is.. at least i have made a big step =)
yay, freedom! i am free frm this stupid thingy.


i read my journal that was written a month ago..
and its impossible to deny that god has been faithful to me!
last mth, i am trapped and yay, God has set me free =)
a decision was made since den, ting must learn to guard her heart and ting have to make a decision to please god even when no one was watching~


oh well, i was kinda immune already.
ting will be affect by u.
no longer ting will trust u.
and yes, the more u are lidat, e more ting detest ur every action.
and u have ruin ur self image by doing this.
who would appreciate this ugly side of u?
and yes, i will still love u cos God loves u =)
and yes, ting was set-free =)
this kind of feeling rawks my socks =p


as i read my journal, i realised that god has moulded me to be a better me.
i realised that together with God, i have overcome alot alot =)
God is faithful!


God, jus now i told u that i wana be set aside for ur kingdom.
i wana do great things for u!
i lurve this ting now.
the one that is so excited for God.
argh, i am on fire!


i kept smiling to myself!
the feeling that i have been longing for.
JOY!


kk gotta go to mug for maths le.
euu are my motivation =)

retarded me =p

 

 

not forgetting God's blessings~

 

+ as u guys noe.. my pathetic phone have to be sent for repairing.. due to tight schedule, today is the only day that i will be available.. this morning, it jus stucked me that my waranty is going to expire soon! and i duno when.. and guess wat? the expiry date is 07/07/2006.. hahas. THANK GOD! simply late for one day and there goes my pathetic phone~ =)

 

 

+ how can i not give thanks for the wonderful ppl that God place in my cg? =) gals, i lurve u all to bits! God is favouring me by placing u gals in westA2.. that smile on my face jus appeared when i tot of u gals. hahas. confirmation was 13.. keep it up!! unit for jesus!! =) *ptss..DAVID HOE, there is one AES guy coming!! =) weee~ i am reali glad! wana see unit size in AES too! =)

 

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errrrrr... as u guys noe, i hate WED alot!
hahahas.
but kk lar.. today wasnt that bad to mii !!
a short account of ting's wed =p
here i go...!


tiingg's morning

SLEEPING !! duhh?
i slept at 4plus am!
argh.
i had a habit to on my hp's volume to the max b4 i sleep cos i am afraid that i cant hear my alarm..
and guess wat, this lousy phone nv failes to freak me out!
more den once, i missed one heartbeat due to this utra-loudness of the volume.
and i was awaked by this freaking phone..
actually even b4 that sms came, i find myself having difficulty falling asleep already..
received jackie's sms in e morning and yups, i have to go skool.
duhh, its wed, i noe there is lesson..
and he "please" me to go skool cos its tcher's bdae.
i dun reali give a damn for that tcher's bdae anyway.
but i went, cos i wana learn and dun wana waste my skool fees.
hahas.


tiingg's noon

DRAG MY FEET.
argh, i am so reluctant to go skool.
the tot of accounts jus freak me out.
accounts!!! yucks!
and guess wat?
i reach skool so early =(
i duno wats wrong with the train today.
so fast~
celebrated his bdae and lesson started.
1st 2 hr was ok.. wrote down notes, recap abt wat i've learn when i was sec 5..
and the last 2 hr was like hell.
bored`ed.
was abit displeased by my skool mann.
cos every mth have to pay 2 mths in advance, i am talking abt skool fees.
and its so weird!
every mth pay two mths in advance.. den when can stop paying?
duno y, i find it so meaningless to go skool.
cant even hear the wat e accounts tcher was talking abt, and paid 60bucks jus for 5hrs of maths per mth.
however if i stop attending skool, i have to work..
so yeah, i shall continue to drag my feet 2 times a week.
i noe, ting is so not gentle now.
complains after complains!
ting!! would u learn to give thanks for it? argh.


tiingg's evening


AFTER SKOOL !! weeeee!
heading to bt panjang to mit cindy for shepherding.
the journey was longer den expected.
i was looking forward to mit her.. yeah!
its has been sometime since we reali catch up with one another =)
actually ting lurves shepherding alot!
may it be eelee shepherding me or me shepherding my sheep.
cos this is a set-aside time for the both of us to do some catching up with one another's life
and also, shepherdings are the times that belong to only u and me! =)
another reaon might be cos i prefer one to one meetings rather den a grp.
i am an introvert? wahahahahs. (note that ques mark)
blegh.


tiingg's thoughts for today...


can i be that someone that i have been longing to be?
i duno is it i am not satisfy with my own thinking world, my life, in whole, am i not satify with tingting?
however, i understand that its best to be myself.
but at times, i dun like the real me.
at times, i dun like the way i reacted.
at times i dun like being so 'jelly-liked' due to my fear of making firm decision and fear of rejecting others.
at times, i dun like myself for having no self-control
at times, i dun like myself for disappointing God.
st times, i dun like myself for wasting year 2006.
at times, i dun like myself taking o levels at the age of 18.
at times, i dun like myself for not working hard enough.
at times, i dun like mself for not being a good daughter to both earthly daddy and heavenly daddy.
at times, i dun like myself for not being a good example as a leader.
and the list goes on...
so i long to be that someone in my heart of hearts.
that wonderful tingting =)


however, at times i love myself to bits!
for ur info, i dun tik i am a low esteem person~
errrr....
yups, i dun tik i am.
its jus that sometimes, some part of my brain cells ain working well..
hehes.


i am God's beloved child =p
ok ting, God deserve a better u!


btw, these few days.
my world revolves ard MATHS MATHS MATHS.
hahahas.
begin to lurve maths le =)
e reason y i am so disciplined is cos dan always give me hmwk!
hahahas.
i am so grateful mann =)
i doubt he will read my post..
actually, i am reali touch that even thou he's tired he still made the effort to mit me..
teaching me maths with his army uniform.
thanks a million =)
i must to my best !!
and not forgetting eelee.
she always went extra miles for me =)
i lurve u eelee!
my love lang is actually acts of service.. and guess wat, this has melted me completly!
i am so blessed =)

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LORD I LIVE BY UR WORD

Lord i live by Your word
Lord i live by every word from Your mouth
I'm like a tree by the stream
I'm bearing fruits my leaves are green
All that I do is prospering o Lord
I live by Your word

As the rain and the snow comes down from heaven
That waters the earth and bring forth it's fruits
so shall be the word that You have spoken
it shall not return empty to You
it shall accomplish Your desire
it surely will succeedYour word tranforms the desert and Your word is changing me

this post gonna be an announcement post!! wahahahas.


1st of all....
westA2 held the 1st potential shepherd meet ever!!
its great mann! =)
15 for JESUS!!


2nd`ly...
tiingg's hp is spolied!
and i hab to use that kuku phone...
its too kuku that i dun dare to take it out and i silence it.. wahaha
so if ever u sms or call me, and i didnt pick up or reply super late, dun blame me!
cos ii cant hear my phone.
if its super urgent, try calling many many times that i might feel the vibration~
lols.


3rd`ly...
ting is not 50kg!!!
i promise myself that if i hit 50kg, i will go into depression mode.
and guess wat?
ard last mth, i was at kaining's hse and i weight myself..
and guess wat? 50KG!!
i was STUNNED!
so i refuse to blive that weighing machine.. haha
ytd, went to eelee's hse..
and i weight.. it was 48KG!
oh.. its the same as the past..
so its either i slim dow 2kg for e past month or kaining's weighing machine spoil.
cos eelee's weighing machine was proven accurate, and kaining's did not!!
50kG Shoo!!


i tik thats abt it..
wahaha
cant reali rmber wat to say lehs...
=p

from jia hui:

hahas,, its ok to be long,, but u reply can ler.. i also very happy to hab u as a CL! really.. dun mind telling u..i NEVER NEVER regret knowing God.. last ltme i think of backslide..but in e end i dit nort.. =) i will be a shepherd de da mermaid! hahas.. i also got pray for u de, and on friday God spoke to me & say.. "ur land will grow!" i am so HAPPY! yarh.. i blive westA2 can grow! SURELY! we must hab gaith in God!!! hahas.. more ppl luke me!! hahas! lame de me.. i am serious in games, hahas. i hope to lead more things in cg..but slowly slowly.. hahas..
God will bless de!!
lurve you!
-jia hui-
xiao lion!


hahas.... its sweet isnt it?
omg, i am going to be drown in this honey land!
wahahas.
jiahui, thanks for adding support to me and ur letter have make my day =)


to say the truth.. i am reali proud to be in west A.
not only in westA2 but as the whole unit.
hahas.
dun ask me y.. i also duno!
but i have the feeling that this unit is where i belong and its the best ! =)
lalalalas.
i am very blessed.
i lurve the cg i belong to.. which is westA dmm..
david,joyce and eelee!! my beloved cg =)
and i love the cg that i am leading...
westA2 !!


if u dun feel belong in this cg.. den i am reali wondering y.
cos there is no way to enter westA2 without experiencing any family warmth, cos we love u dearly. =)
my precious~
dun left urself out alright? =p
lets connect our NEW-b and those who are not with us.
dun give up kk? =)

ii lurve my today alot =)
physically, i am dead tired..
reali !!
cant stop yawrning..
but spiritually, i am so refresh mann.


learn reali alot today..
reali alot..
actually, i wana post lyrics, bible verses on blog de..
however, i am reali lazy lar.
wahahahas.
jus that, everything seems so meaningful to me today.
wahahahas.
i was wondering, those who harden their hearts and didnt learn as much today..
jus too bad lor, cos u've missed out big time, and time will not turn back jus for ur sake.


i was thinking...
sometimes, during sermon, when God spoke, as a shepherd, we tend to tik that this way.. "this is for her, hope she will respond!"
hurr, haha... sounds familiar eh?
but i have made a decision, i wana listen for my sake.
as in, not that i am selfish and i dun bother abt my flock anymore lar..
however, God need to speak to me 1st b4 i can pastor my flocks.
and and and, i mus position myself for HIM to speak.
as i am listening, of cos i pray that my flocks are listening as well, as i learn, they learn, as i respond, they respond too!
however, if u choose not to, there is nth much i can do, no point for me to be distracted jus bcos u choose to be spiritually deaf..


i duno y leh...
felt alot abt time..
as in, cos time is one thing that, once its gone,its gone.
there will only be one '1st july 2006' and i very scared that i will miss out, esp today is a sat.
a 'set-aside' day to mit God.
so wats the point if i have miss it hur?
and and and.. if God spoke, and i didnt catch it, kicking myself a million times will definelty not work!


anyway, we have a convert today!!
hurray!!
praise God =)
in jesus name, she will be connected to this warmth family of god =p
our precious~


ting have to be eager in learning~
she cant be passive, cos when she is eager, she gained.
she cant forfeit herself by being so passive ..
be an active learner!


two person, same room,same preacher
different attitudes, different agendas, different level of expectancy..
walk out..
different level of joy, different life.
one noe God more, one din..
one noes the ans, e other still lost.
one has already pick herself up, one, still thinks that she's hurt.
all i can say is....
too bad for the one that miss out.
ting pity u.
so wad can i do?
cry together? -nahz
laugh at u? -nahz
pity u? -nahz
oh oh, den wat can i do?
NOTHING.


i lurve my God.
he is so wonderful =)
he loves me!